Well, I guess God does work in mysterious ways. I was in the middle of writing a post about my 1 person pity party when my boss came to me with a story that really made me put myself in check….
Her neighbor told her over the weekend that she is 4 months pregnant. However, there is a complication. The baby has too many chromosomes and will most likely be severely handicapped. They have to make the hardest decision that no parent should have to make- to carry the baby to term, or to abort. They also have 2 younger children ages 2 and 3. Please keep this family in your prayers. I cannot imagine being in their position.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
I guess I shouldn't be so shocked...
Tested last night and got a BFN (big fat negative.) Went to try again this morning and AF showed up. I don't know why I'm surprised.
Friday, October 10, 2008
A bundle of something.....
This might come out to be a bit incoherent. Please be patient with me… I’m trying to sort some stuff out.
I’ve not ever been one of those people who analyzes if I have pregnancy symptoms or not. I don’t normally have strong feelings that I COULD be pregnant. This month, though, it’s different, and I’m not sure if I like it…..
I’ve been analyzing my symptoms. I feel sick almost all the time. I’ve been exhausted and asleep by 9:30 every night. (I would be asleep sooner if I didn’t have so much to do before I could get myself to bed. ) I feel like I’ve been blown up like a balloon. I’m lightheaded and a bit dizzy. I’ve been having some cramps and my boobs are KILLING ME
All of these could be signs of pregnancy, but they are also PMS symptoms and most are also side effects of Metformin. I’m trying SO hard not to get my hopes up. I’m trying to tell myself that I’m probably not pregnant- because why would this month be any different from the last 15 months? It’s been so easy to brush off these types of symptoms before, why not now?
Is it maybe because the Hubs is being so optimistic? Is it because my sister in law just has a feeling? I called her the other day, and she was just so sure I was calling to tell her that I was pregnant. They’re coming home next week for a bit (The Hubs’ brother has a temp job down in FL) and I would LOVE to be able to tell them some good news.
So I guess it all comes down do this: Do I want to be pregnant? Of COURSE! Do I think I AM pregnant? Yes. But No. But Maybe…… I’m a bundle of something (Nerves? Excitement? Anticipation?) and I need to either 1) get a visit from AF (not a welcome option) or 2) hurry up and get to Monday so that I can test. And then the test needs to be positive. And then I can relax. Kinda.
I’ve not ever been one of those people who analyzes if I have pregnancy symptoms or not. I don’t normally have strong feelings that I COULD be pregnant. This month, though, it’s different, and I’m not sure if I like it…..
I’ve been analyzing my symptoms. I feel sick almost all the time. I’ve been exhausted and asleep by 9:30 every night. (I would be asleep sooner if I didn’t have so much to do before I could get myself to bed. ) I feel like I’ve been blown up like a balloon. I’m lightheaded and a bit dizzy. I’ve been having some cramps and my boobs are KILLING ME
All of these could be signs of pregnancy, but they are also PMS symptoms and most are also side effects of Metformin. I’m trying SO hard not to get my hopes up. I’m trying to tell myself that I’m probably not pregnant- because why would this month be any different from the last 15 months? It’s been so easy to brush off these types of symptoms before, why not now?
Is it maybe because the Hubs is being so optimistic? Is it because my sister in law just has a feeling? I called her the other day, and she was just so sure I was calling to tell her that I was pregnant. They’re coming home next week for a bit (The Hubs’ brother has a temp job down in FL) and I would LOVE to be able to tell them some good news.
So I guess it all comes down do this: Do I want to be pregnant? Of COURSE! Do I think I AM pregnant? Yes. But No. But Maybe…… I’m a bundle of something (Nerves? Excitement? Anticipation?) and I need to either 1) get a visit from AF (not a welcome option) or 2) hurry up and get to Monday so that I can test. And then the test needs to be positive. And then I can relax. Kinda.
My Husband Rocks
My Husband Rocks this week because he lets me have my own life, and he really looks forward to the time we can spend together. I haven't been home much this week- and when I have been home, I've mostly been sleeping..... so he's been (more or less) planning his life around me this week. AND we're going on a date tonight. That means I don't have to cook. His idea. THAT'S why I love him :)
Monday, October 6, 2008
Metformin kinda sucks
I started taking Metformin on Friday night, and I'm not really a fan of the side effects. I read some warnings on soulcysters.net and made sure to take it RIGHT before I go to bed and to take it with a glass of milk......
Fist of all, the pills have a bit of a fishy smell in the bottle. Not appetizing. And then, about 5 minutes after I take it, my whole body feels really dizzy. I wasn't able to ride in a car (driving was OK) most of the weekend, because I kept getting car sick. Even the 5 minute trip to church yesterday made me want to hurl. ugh! And also, until about halfway through the day, I feel like I have a mild/moderate hangover. I really hope this doesn't last.
Do any of you in bloggy land have experience with Met, or some advice to give me? I'm only on 500mg now, and the RE wants me to get up to 1500mg. I can't see this happening, but maybe I'm just super sensative because I've only just started to take it.....
Fist of all, the pills have a bit of a fishy smell in the bottle. Not appetizing. And then, about 5 minutes after I take it, my whole body feels really dizzy. I wasn't able to ride in a car (driving was OK) most of the weekend, because I kept getting car sick. Even the 5 minute trip to church yesterday made me want to hurl. ugh! And also, until about halfway through the day, I feel like I have a mild/moderate hangover. I really hope this doesn't last.
Do any of you in bloggy land have experience with Met, or some advice to give me? I'm only on 500mg now, and the RE wants me to get up to 1500mg. I can't see this happening, but maybe I'm just super sensative because I've only just started to take it.....
Friday, October 3, 2008
My Husband Rocks!
Happy Friday, everyone! Things are pretty crazy over in our corner of the sky. Crazy busy with a whole lot of nothing (except waiting out the 2ww, of course.) The Hubs and I are going to a concert tonight, and I'm so excited! Brandon Heath (who I'm completely in love with) and Sara Groves (Who I fell in love with at a Jars of Clay concert) are playing in a church that is about 5ish minutes away from my house. How excited am I?! Pretty excited. Friday night is usually our unofficial "date night." We like to take the time to just get out of the house and do things as a couple- even if those things turn out to be running errands, at least we're doing it together. So.. I'm pumped.
This week, my amazing and wonderful husband rocks because he's so hopeful about this cycle of Clomid. I've asked him to kinda keep his confidence on the down low, because I REALLY don't want to be dissappointed or to dissappoint him. I have to admit, though, that his hopefulness is contagious! He has been so supportive of all of the RE appointments I've had to go to, and he has been totally committed to making sure I have whatever I need to get me through this stressful time. He's pretty much the awesome-est.
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