Friday, June 26, 2009

Nobody told me the first trimester sucks!

...Or maybe they did, and I just thought they were exaggerating. I mean, really, how much could it suck, right? You’re PREGNANT! There’s a person growing inside of you! You should be SMILING as you puke your guts up, right?

Well, I did smile the first couple of mornings that I woke up with the nausea that never ends. I was humming a happy tune as I dry heaved over the toilet at work. I laughed when I became too bloated (and constipated) to button my pants. Because I’m growing a person! After 2 years of trying, I actually got knocked up!

And then reality hit. Constant nausea sucks ass. Constipation should be a four letter word. I know I need to eat, but NOTHING tastes good, and I gag while trying to force feed myself. Having to sit at work, under florescent lights, and stare at a computer screen with a screaming headache, and not being able to take anything for it is a special kind of torture. I don’t know how pregnant women function. Maybe I’m a wuss, but I’m having a REALLY hard time getting through this first trimester…..

And I feel so bad for complaining. I’ve wanted this for so long, I feel like I don’t have the right to be frustrated with the crap that comes along with the first trimester. I feel like I should be dancing around everywhere with a perma-grin on my face.

Yeah, I don’t have that.

I do take comfort in my sickness a little bit, however, because I know it means the Bean is still growing in there. I’ll be even more at ease once I see the heartbeat on Tuesday. Until then, it doesn’t really feel real. I just feel sick. Constantly.

13 comments:

Melissa Griffin said...

Oh JIll - boy do I understand and I am definitely with you in the fact that after want ing it for so long you feel bad complaining but hey it does blow. If you need help with constipation take Metimucil (spg) pills...they work!

The Unproductive One said...

I'd happily swap places with you....

Serendipity said...

Nobody tells you about this part, they go on and on about all the blooming and the glowing but this bit is just glossed over as something that happens to "some women".

I always feel terrible complaining, like I should be grateful every time I feel sick or teary but you know what, I love my baby, I'm glad as all hell to be here but I can still complain when I can no longer function as a normal human being and I don't have to feel bad about it.

Good luck for your scan Tuesday, seeing that little blob and the flicker of a heartbeat is amazing and it will make it more real for you, I hope your tech turns the sound up and you get to hear it too.

Hope said...

I can't wait to hear about the heartbeat!!! Exciting!

Kim H. said...

I've heard that eating small meals often helps with the nausea... like a handful of crackers every couple hours - because if your stomach isn't empty - it makes it better somehow. I don't know from experience, but that is what some pregnant women have told me. I also heard that bananas are good for nausea. Hang in there - it'll be worth it!

roadrunner201 said...

Listen, if they told you how much the first trimester sucked, no one would have kids;-)

No, really, it just doesn't suck for everyone. For me, it totally sucked for 16 weeks! My BFF, who was pregnant one month behind me barely even had nausea.

The ONLY thing that worked for me, short of prescription meds was to take 1000 mg of B12 and one Unisom a day. I could only take the Unisom at night because I had stuff to get done during the day, namely teaching my 6th graders. And, of course, check with your Dr. first, but it was my midwife who told me to take it.

Best wishes that the "Golden" trimester comes quickly! That would be the second one. The third one will probably be a doosy, too, but not in the throwing up kind of way. More in the foot in your ribs, cant bend or breathe, too much pressure on the sciatic nerve kind of way. But then, after that, you'll have your precious baby in your arms!

I felt like the birth was a piece of cake compared to the pregnancy:-)

natalie said...

I stumbled on your blog, and wanted to second the B12 and Unisom idea. My doctor told me to take the B12 pill and 1/2 of a Unisom at night, and it seems to help a little. I've also found I feel much better once I eat, so even Saltines throughout the day seem to work. I am also sick all day long, no fun. But it does sound like you're right on track :)

Alissa said...
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Alissa said...

I also took/take Unisom and B6 at night and my morning sickness is all but gone. Even being 3 weeks away from my due date, if I miss a night I'm sick as a dog the next day! Talk to your dr about trying it.
Also, do not feel bad for complaining about morning sickness. No matter what we all go thru to get pregnant and how thankful we are to GET pregnant, pregnancy is not a walk in the park. Don't we deserve support for the pregnancy as much as we deserve support for our infertility?

Brittany Hast said...

HELLO,
O man. first and for most I barley have the strength to write this so please do not judge me for miss spelled words or punctuation marks THANK YOU. I started feeling crapy probably 2 weeks into my pregnancy. I felt like my body said ok all sick symptoms she's pregnant now lets go get her. I am 11 weeks now and for 2 1/2 months I have been feeling like sorry to be so blunt but satan's butt whole!!! I have been layed up in bed for WEEKS feeling literally like i'm dying!. I feel like I have the flu,mono i feel groggy, random migraines,beyond weak/tired,hot flashes,anxiety, nausea is UNREAL, A few soap opera moments of how could you,screw you,why me, dear god please,your so mean to me ext.. These symptoms last all day long theres no relief. If I have a day where I can actually do something BAM next day im on my death bed again. Is this normal, to feel seriously like im dying everyday? Is it somthing more serious? ?I cry alot wondering will I ever feel normal again. I cant function

Anonymous said...

Brittany,
I am 12 weeks pregnant and I feel the EXACT same way as you! My doctor just told me to hang in there and it should subside at about week 14. I'm counting down the days! You are not alone.

Anonymous said...

ANd to imagine nobody mentions this! Was totally unprepared for this too. Jan 2014 is just too too far.

miss_katamari said...

I'm going through the exact same ladies. I'm 6 1/2 weeks and have been feeling dreadful for the last 2 and a half (although it feels like forever!). I have to drag myself through every day and its so hard knowing that ill probably feel like this for another couple of months. It is just relentless! I'm a teacher and getting through the day feels like a miracle! All I want to do is sleep and for the nausea to go away. I honestly had no idea early pregnancy would feel so wretched! At least it will all be worth it in the end and hopefully we'll all be feeling better soon xxx