Thursday, September 24, 2009

And the Dietician Says....

So my meeting with the dietician went well(ish.) Basically she just told me I have to watch my carb intake. Cool. AND I can have as much peanut butter as I want. AND she said that sugar free jelly is OK to eat. So my recently found love of PB&Js is unharmed. Until I get sick of them. And then I’ll have to find something else to eat for lunch.

**Please, Dear Lord, don’t let me get sick of PB&J! Please let me keep loving it until after this little one has evacuated my womb. Then I can hate it again. I don’t care.**

This lady was all Fire and Brimstone about how I COMPLETELY failed my test. She kept saying “You didn’t just fail, you REALLY failed.” Thanks, lady. Just what I needed to hear. SO I’m sitting there, feeling like a failure, and then she starts to talk about my weight. And how I’m JUST on the line of the weight I should be gaining. Umm I’m 18 weeks in, and I’ve only gained 4 lbs. I was pretty proud of myself until that moment.

She tells me I have to test twice a day- once in the morning before I do ANYTHING (right… I haven’t really remembered to add that to the beginning of my routine yet.) and then once during the day after alternate meals (ie, 2 hours after breakfast one day, then lunch the next, then dinner…) And if I’m at or near the limit for any reason, I have to tell her EXACTLY why I’m over the limit. Oh, and apparently, I’m eating too late at night. Because I really love getting home at 6, after being gone since 7, and figuring out what to eat and then making it. It’s my favorite thing in the world. And not even a little bit intimidating. (See my previous post a few down about how food has been stressing me out.)

So then I get home, and I call my prescription company to see what glucose meters they cover, so I know what to ask for when I get to the store. They transfer me around in circles for an hour, until I finally reach a lady who tells me that I can get a free meter (sweet!) BUT I have to use the mail-in program. The company will fax my Dr something to sign to say it’s OK to get the meter, and when the company finally gets the fax back (who knows how long that will take) they’ll send me the meter in the mail. It will take up to 10 days after they get permission to get me the meter. Obviously, that solution wasn’t going to work. Luckily, my sister had GD when she was pregnant with her twins, so I was able to use her meter. All I had to do was shell out $102 for test strips. (in the words of my sister, “those things are like GOLD”)

So, it was a great time. Also, apparently the Low Carb craze is over. I was totally counting on the South Beach and Adkin’s followers to carry me through this- but the grocery store told me another story. Freakin’ A!

Monday, September 21, 2009

overdue update

Please forgive my lack of blogging. I’ve had such a hard time putting thoughts into words lately!

Things are going pretty well, so far, knock on wood! The morning sickness has been gone for a while now (Praise the Lord!) and I’ve had a bit more energy. Food is still stressing me out, which sucks even more now, because….. I have Gestational Diabetes! I was tested early because of my PCOS and my sister having it. I guess it was a good thing that they tested me early, because it turns out that I have it. I keep hearing that it’s not so bad once you get used to it, but I’m not so sure. I have an appointment with the nutritionist this afternoon, so hopefully she’ll set my mind at ease about all of this and I can get on track. The silver lining, I guess, is that it should limit the amount of baby weight that I put on (not that I was really worried about that) and I’ll have less to lose after baby is born. Hopefully I’ll be able to stay on the diet once the little bundle arrives, and it will help with my PCOS symptoms. Another silver lining: I don’t have to take that terrible test again at 27 weeks! I’m actually really excited about that. It was horrible.

We find out what I’m growing in 2 weeks form tomorrow! I’m so excited! I can’t wait to start shopping and registering, and getting the nursery done. Mostly, too, I can’t wait to get new carpet. My ILs have generously offered to pay for us to get new carpet in our bedroom and the baby’s room. The previous owners’ animals used those rooms as litter boxes, and that has prompted our pets to do the same. Pretty gross. We’re hoping that a coat of KILLZ and new carpets will get rid of that habit.

I felt the baby move about a week and a half ago! The Hubs was away on business and I was lonely. I had just gotten off the phone with him, and all of the sudden I felt a very obvious bump right below my belly button. Suddenly, I wasn’t so lonely anymore!

That’s pretty much all that’s going on in my corner of the sky right now. I hope one or two people out there haven’t given up on me! I promise to write again, soon.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Makes me Happy

Someone on my local message board asked us all to list things that make us happy- things that aren’t husband/child related. Writing the list made me happy, so I thought I’d post here. I even added more than what I told them. What a good way to start a day.

~Christmas Eve at my mom’s house.
~Cadbury Crème eggs
~Starbucks white chocolate mocha
~Having long, serious discussions on stupid topics
~Animals in general. Mostly baby ones.
~The ocean. Especially sitting out on the beach at night and staring into the blackness.
~Getting lost in a good book.
~New clothes.
~Spending time with my sisters.
~Christmas trees.
~Standing outside on a silent winter night when tiny snowflakes are falling and look like glitter. It makes me feel like nothing could ever go wrong.
~Waking up somewhere new on a summer morning (like on vacation) and sitting outside enjoying the freedom that being away from home brings.
~Slow dancing (not so much with Paul, though. After almost 8 years, he still doesn’t know where to put his hands! Also, the height difference makes it difficult.)
~Going to the Park and feeding the ducks. Sometimes, they will completely surround you so that you are standing in a sea of them.
~Warm weather in December. (or Jan or Feb or anytime in the winter)
~ Having out of town relatives over and staying up late into the night talking about everything and nothing.
~Crawling into (or back into) my super comfy bed.
~Moments like this: This morning when I was driving in, I passed a field that was kind of overgrown. There was a small hill somewhere in the middle and a doe was standing completely still and looking toward the trees. There was fog on the ground, and the sun was just rising, so it hit in just the perfect place. I wanted to stop my car and stay in that moment for hours.

What makes you happy?