Wednesday, August 19, 2009

love affair

Dear Second Trimester,

Oh, how I love you (so far.) Let me count the ways….

1. No more morning sickness!
2. I can now eat (most) foods without gagging!
3. I have energy back! (Ok, so it’s pre-pregnancy lazy day energy, but it’s SOOOO much more than I had before!)
4. I’m starting to look very cute in fitted maternity shirts.
5. I can finally say that I’m pregnant and not feel like people are going to think I’m lying.
6. I can find out if he/she is a he or a she in a matter of weeks!
7. When I have cravings now, The Hubs takes it more seriously ;)

Ok, so 7 ways sounds kind of lame, but seriously? Those 7 things are HUGE!!!! Second Trimester, you are my new best friend! Please don’t turn your back on me and trick me into thinking things are great when you’re just going to make me all sick and tired and weak again. I just don’t think I can stand it.

Love always, (or unless you turn your back on me)


Dear Family,

I am NOT having twins. I know I started to show very early, but I am 100% sure that there is only one baby in my uterus. Between my low-ish hcg levels in the very beginning, the 6 ultrasounds I have had, and the single heartbeat I have heard, I’m pretty sure the RE would have caught it by now. Give it up.


I love you anyway,


The state of things:

The NT Scan came back looking fantastic. RE released me on Monday. I have a regular OB appt next Monday, and I’m touring the L&D department of the hospital 5 minutes from my house the following Monday.

I have fallen in love with Maternity pants. The full belly panel kind from Motherhood Maternity. They are the MOST comfortable things I have ever worn in my life. I may never stop wearing them. Also? I got a cute polo shirt from a friend, and my baby bump looks pretty fab in it, if I do say so myself.

So far, this second trimester thing is pretty great. (And now I’m knocking on everything around me that is wood or made from wood.)

Monday, August 10, 2009


Pregnancy is the most amazing, most uncomfortable experience I have ever had.

I’m very tired and whiny today. I need to complain to someone, and I know everyone I know IRL will tell me “you wanted this.” And I need to not hear that right now. Yes, I did want this. Yes, I still do want this. More than anything in the world. Being pregnant is amazing. It also sucks.

I was 12 weeks on Saturday. Morning Sickness has been with me since last week sometime. I’m over it. I’m also sick of food aversions and never wanting to eat, until I do. And when I DO want to eat, it’s always when I can’t. And when I CAN eat, everything sounds/tastes disgusting. The Hubs says he can’t look at me while I eat right now, because I always look like I’m going to immediately throw up anything that passes through my lips. I might. And THAT is frustrating. SO frustrating.

The food issue has brought me to tears on numerous occasions. I can’t go grocery shopping because everything looks gross, so I don’t buy anything. The result is no food in the house. I put off eating as long as I can, because I hate trying to force things down my throat. And then I get worried that I’m not eating enough, or healthy enough. Any solutions to this would be greatly appreciated.

Also? Sleep is not happening. At least not when it’s supposed to. I’ll go to bed early (when I can) and toss and turn because I can’t find a comfortable position. When I finally do and finally drift off to sleep, it’s almost time to wake up. And then I fall asleep at work. Or worse, I start to drift off in my car when I’m driving to and from work! And I work 35-45 minutes away from my house! That’s scary.

AND I’m really hating being touched right now. My skin crawls when people hug me, and The Hubs is getting his feelings hurt because I want nothing to do with him right now. I like knowing he’s beside me, but not too close, and not touching me. And I HATE kissing. I feel so bad, because I haven’t really seen him in about a month due to the play I’m in, but I just can’t do it!

And of course, money is tight. How are we supposed to have a baby and provide for it when we are having a rough time getting by ourselves? STRESS! STRESS! STRESS!

And I’m stressed because I’m stressed. Help?

Friday, August 7, 2009

I'm alive!

There’s way too much to talk about, so I’m going to have to resort to the dreaded bullet points. (I have no idea why bullet points are so dreaded. Honestly, I don’t mind reading them. Maybe it’s something that actual writers have a problem with? I dunno.)

~ A couple of weeks ago, The Hubs and I took a much needed trip away. I had a family reunion in Gettysburg, PA, so we took a long weekend and pretended it was a vacation. It’s the first time we’ve been out of town (for pleasure) since our honeymoon 3 ½ years ago, and we have no idea when we’re going to be able to get away again, so this was it. We had a lot of fun, but it went by way too fast- and we didn’t get to see or do as much as we would have liked to. Hopefully we’ll be going back next year!

~ The play I’m in? It opens TONIGHT! EEK! I was super calm until this morning, when I realized that I’m actually going to be performing in front of PEOPLE! People that I know! What if I mess up? What if my baby steals my brain cells and I completely blank out in the middle of a sentence? (again.) Plus, I’m supposed to be kind of the comic relief of the show, so there’s no pressure there at all……. Wish me luck!

~ I’m so very very tired! I know pregnant women are supposed to keep active, but, until a couple of days ago, I had been going going going like the energizer bunny for WEEKS! I called off of work Wednesday, because my body did not want to move. At all. It took everything in my power to walk from the bedroom to the bathroom across the hall. I took that as a sign that I was overdoing it a little and called off of work. Of course, my dog decided that he was going to be really needy that day, so I wasn’t off of my feet as much as I would have liked, but, you know, whatever.

~ Went to the RE for my NT scan today. He said that all of the measurements look good, and I need to go back in about a week to discuss the results of the blood work part. I’m not worried, though. After that consultation, I will be released from them. I guess I should start looking for a regular OB now, huh? I’ve never had a regular OB/GYN before… kinda nervous to start shopping for one now! I have no idea what I’m even supposed to look for! Do I interview them (like in Knocked Up) or do I just go in for an appt and see if I like it? I’m really excited to be finally almost done with my first trimester, but I’m also really sad that I won’t be getting to take a peek inside my uterus every 2 weeks. It was really nice to have that reassurance, you know?

~ Last week was my 10 year high school reunion. CRAZY! Not too many people showed up. Out of a class of about 300, only 50 people came. Most of them were the people that I had expected to see anyway, so it wasn’t really all that surprising (thank you, facebook) but it’s really strange to say that I have been to my 10 year reunion! Time flies, huh? The best part? I got to sit around and talk about babies with the other pregnant/mommy people! I’m so glad I have this little nugget inside of me- otherwise I probably would have been hiding out in the ladies room all night.

I don’t really remember where I was going with this, so I’ll end it here. I haven’t had time really to catch up with too many people. How are you all doing??