Thursday, January 29, 2009

You know what they say about people who ASSUME…..

I finally got around to calling my insurance provider to find out about what fertility treatments would be covered. Silly me, I figured that, since my RE was covered in their plan, they would cover some type of treatments.

They don’t. The only thing they only thing they cover is getting diagnosed. Isn’t that nice of them? I kind of feel like I was dropped in the middle of nowhere with nothing but the clothes on my back, and told that it was up to me to figure out how to get back home.

I’m really not sure what to do with this. I guess The Hubs and I are going to have to have (yet another) serious talk.


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Kind of all over the place

I don’t have anything profound to share with the class. I have failed at ICLW. I was so sick and achy all weekend that I really didn’t feel like sitting in front of my computer. I’m sorry. I really thought I’d be able to do it this month…

I did, however, watch Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium [] yesterday. (I called off of work because I was miserable.) This movie was SO good… and the casting was amazing. Dustin Hoffman! Natalie Portman! Jason Bateman! Why wasn’t this movie a hit? I’m pretty sure it was being targeted to the wrong audience.

Here’s one of my favorite quotes:

“37 seconds”“Great. Well done. Now, we wait.”“No. We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds well used is a lifetime.”

Have you seen this? If not, go rent it. You’ll love it. Don’t expect it to be all light and fluffy, though, because it’s not. It’s heartwarming and uplifting, but there’s some definite depth to it. Stop back here after you’ve watched it to let me know what you think.

I’m on CD 62. No signs of ovulation or AF. I’m wondering how long this stalemate with my ovaries will last. Obviously the Metformin isn’t working as well as I would have hoped.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Just stuff

My sinuses hate me. I feel like I’m stuffed with cotton from the base of my neck to the top of my head. My head is so stuffed with cotton, that it made me forget a bunch of important stuff…. Like the fact that it’s ICLW! (and some other important work-related stuff, too. It’s pretty frustrating. I know the knowledge is somewhere in my brain, I just can’t seem to get to it. Totally annoying.)

I really don’t have too much to talk about today, so I’ll just give you a glimpse into my tv junkie mind.

American Idol auditions bore me. I think they showed a whole 1 or 2 decently talented people on last night’s episode. I fast forwarded through most of it. And Bikini Girl from last week? Please. I hope this season gets better, because right now it seems like a joke. Kara DiGuardi is pretty cool, though. At least she’s credible.

24 is back, and started the season off well. I did a little happy dance (OK, a big, over the top happy dance) when I saw a few of my favorite faces back. Tony Almeda is totally hot, and I really missed Jack Bauer. I think I’ll forever miss David Palmer. He was my all time favorite character.

Gossip Girl was OK this week. I’m over Dan and Serena. I haven’t liked them with anyone else they’ve been paired with, but I don’t like them together. I think I’m just mostly over Dan. I’m super stoked about Lily and Rufus, though. They’re sweet together…. I’ve been rooting for them since the pilot. It was good to see Blair as the Queen B again. Nate + Vanessa = boring. I liked them together at first, but the pairing makes Nate have not enough screen time. I’m not all about that. Also? Jenny’s hair? Ew. It’s so bad it’s distracting.

One Tree Hill was only OK this week, too. I’m really glad that Julian is turning out to be a good guy for Brooke. She’s my fav, and I like him. What else has he been in, though? It’s driving me nuts. Also, is it just me, or does anyone else think that James Van Der Beek (sp?) should have come back as Dawson? I mean, Dawson was a director, and his character would have been THE PERFECT choice for Lucas’ movie. Am I right?

The Big Bang Theory is my new favorite sitcom. I still love HIMYM and The Office and always will, but TBBT makes me laugh EVERY TIME. It’s just really smart comedy. It kind of reminds me of my friend who is an astrophysicist. (You think I’m kidding, don’t you? I’m not. He was one of my best friends in HS, grew up within walking distance of my parents’ house, and currently lives in Switzerland with his super cool wife.) So anyway, I like that show.

Lost starts tonight. I have mixed feelings about this show….. I loved it until last season. I’m really frustrated with the fact that it raises all of these questions and then NEVER ANSWERS THEM! EVER! I’ll watch, and I’ll probably become addicted to it again, but I’m not all that pumped for it.

Yesterday was Inauguration day! Whether you love him or hate him, President Barak Obama made history last night. I feel so blessed to see this in my lifetime. He has a lot of expectations to try to live up to. I hope people realize that he is only one person, and he is only human. Change won’t come immediately, but I believe it will come. My prayers go up for the Lord to protect him and guide him to the correct path for this country.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


According to Google, 43 people subscribe to this blog. Why haven't I heard from you? I'd kinda like to know who you are, so do you think you could just leave a quick little "hey there?"

Come out, Come out wherever you are!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Dear Jillian Michaels,

Until you show up in my mailbox, like I asked you to over a week ago, I am going to rebel by eating all the junk food I can get my little paws on. That cool with you?

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I'm gonna miss this...

The song “You’re gonna miss this” by Trace Adkins makes me cry every. Single. Time. I listen to it. The lyrics are so true, and they really hit home… especially since I’m being so impatient with TTC. The Hubs and I are really trying to enjoy every day as it comes, and enjoy being relatively free to do whatever we want. I think all of us who are TTC, however, know how incredibly hard it is to do when everything inside of you is screaming to become a mom.


She was staring out the window of their SUVComplaning, saying "I can't wait to turn 18"
She said "I'll make my own money, and I'll make my own rules"
Mamma put the car in park out there in front of the school
Then she kissed her head and said "I was just like you"

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Before she knows it she's a brand new bride
In a one-bedroom apartment, and her daddy stops by
He tells her "It's a nice place"
She says "It'll do for now"
Starts talking about babies and buying a house
Daddy shakes his head and says "Baby, just slow down"

Cause you're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Five years later there's a plumber workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin', one kid's screamin'
And she keeps apologizin'
He says "They don't bother me. I've got 2 babies of my own.
One's 36, one's 23.
Huh, it's hard to believe, but...

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this"

Monday, January 12, 2009


We’re going to wait to start IUI stuff until March. The Hubs read somewhere that it can take up to 6 months for metformin to help with ovulation, so we’re going to wait until then.

I hate being in this place. I hate being stuck, knowing that I can’t really move on with my life because of “what if?” (ie. If I get a new job, we’ll be without medical coverage and I probably won’t get maternity leave. At the same time, I think it’s really time for me to move on from this place. I need a job that will keep me mentally engaged throughout the day. This is not that job.)

I’m just kinda all over the place right now. I'm repeating myself, but I know I’m feeling sorry for myself, and that there are other people out there who have it worse than me. I know that I’m being a terrible person when I say that I don’t WANT to be that couple who waits and tries for 5 or more years before FINALLY getting a miracle pregnancy. At the same time, I really need to be able to move on from here. I think I could handle failed IUIs or a miscarriage better than I can handle “waiting it out.” I need to know that I’m going in a direction, one way or the other.

I’m just SO SICK of waiting……

Friday, January 9, 2009


I’ve been a bad blogger for a few weeks… and I’ve been even worse at telling the world about how my husband rocks. He has, indeed, rocked the few weeks I was MIA, I was just too lazy to blog about it. Today, inspired by Katy Lin, I will again announce to the webisphere why my darling husband ROCKS!

1. Where did you meet? We were set up on a blind date by our best friends, who were dating each other at the time.

2. How long did you date before you were married? We were dating 4 years (almost to the day) on the day we got married. He proposed to me after 2 ½ years of dating, though.

3. What does he do that surprises you? Laundry! Don’t think for one minute that I don’t appreciate it!

4. What is your favorite quality of his? How he cares about people…. My family/sisters especially. I love knowing that I have married someone who cares about them (almost) as much as I do, and would do anything for them.

5. What is your favorite feature of his? The way his eyes sparkle when he’s really happy.

6. Does he have a nickname for you? Does “honey” count?

7. What is his favorite food? Sauerkraut and Pork (and he recently declared that I make it better than his mom. That was pretty much the awesomest thing ever)

8. What is his favorite sport? Depends… I think Basket Ball and Football are about the same, however, I think he’s more of a Browns fan than a Cavs fan.

9. When and where was your first kiss? Right outside my mom’s front door, after we had been seeing each other for like 2 weeks.

10. What do you like to do together? Veg and watch TV or go out to the dollar movie theater.

11. Do you have any children? Not yet (obviously.)

12. Does he have a hidden talent? Laundry/cleaning. He can seriously get spots out of anything!

13. Who said "I love you" first? I let it slip after we had been dating for a little while, but I brushed it off as a joke and didn’t mention it again until he said it.

14. What is his favorite type of music? Christian Rock/ Heavy metal (or as I like to call it, “yell-y music”

15. What do you admire most about him? His ability to keep our checking account in balance. We’d be in serious trouble if it were left up to me. I fully admit it, and I’m fully grateful for him!

16. Do you think he will read this? Yep! He totally reads my blog (especially the MHR posts)