Friday, October 31, 2008

My Husband ROCKS!

My husband Rocks today because he’s getting excited about our Halloween Party tomorrow! I kinda sprang the idea on him a couple of weeks ago, fully expecting him to freak out and tell me no- but he’s been really “gung-ho” about the whole thing. I’m etty pumped! He even agreed to be K-Fed to my Crazy Britney. Don’t worry, I’ll post a pic or two.

Friday, October 24, 2008


Let me tell you a story…..

Once upon a time, I was in high school. I had gone to a Catholic school from Kindergarten- 8th grade, so the transition from my grade school to a public high school was a big culture shock. I hate to admit this, but I was kinda raised to be afraid of “public school kids.” According to my teachers, they all smoked, swore, and were altogether bad kids. I was TERRIFIED for my first day…. and even more terrified when one of my first encounters with “public school kids” proved that my grade school teachers were right. I felt so out of place and so uncomfortable. I didn’t seem to have anything in common with anyone. Then, I discovered theatre- and through that, I met some of the most amazing people, and some of those people became my best friends.

“My Girls” and I became pretty much inseparable. We supported each other when needed (and, lets face it, this was high school… we needed it a lot.) We had sleepovers and girls nights. We shared clothes (and boys.) We weren’t afraid to be 100% ourselves, because we knew the others would be there for us no matter what. We made some of the most hysterical memories that we hold close even today. We all knew that we were so blessed to have each other in our lives. We were family.

Graduation came and went. We all tried to stay in contact, but, like it tends to do, life seemed to get in the way. We were trying to forge our paths in life. The phone calls and emails became less and less frequent until they stopped. Once in a while we would run into each other, promise to call or email, and then go on with our lives. In the meantime, I met and became close to a number of amazing people who are still in my life and still very much a part of my heart.

Looking back, I think we needed to grow apart for that time. We all needed to figure out our own identities, and I don’t think we could have done that if we didn’t lose touch. It would have been too hard to “find ourselves” when we were still in that group mentality. The solidity that held us all together and kept us going through some of the hardest years of our lives would have held us all back. I see that now, and, as much as I have missed them over the years, I am grateful for it. God has a plan, and he doesn’t make mistakes.

A few weeks ago, I had a “date” to meet L for dinner. (L and I did stay in touch for the most part. We would go months without talking, but we knew we could always pick up where we left off. She was even in my wedding.) L told me that she had a surprise guest for me. The surprise guest also brought 2 surprises of her own. For the first time in 9 years, we were all in the same room at the same time. Even though SO much had changed, and it had been so many years, it felt almost like nothing had changed. Within minutes we were all laughing effortlessly again, and sharing stories. Sitting in the same spot in the same restaurant we had frequented as teenagers, it felt surreal. I realized, again- and in a much deeper sense, how lucky I am to know these women. How lucky and incredibly blessed I am to have them in my life again. How amazing, strong, and inspiring they all are.

In the time we had spent apart, we had all made our own lives, and proved how strong we really are. On that day, one of us was VERY pregnant, and going through a divorce. One of us was in town only temporarily to get some much needed R&R before heading out as a cast member in the national tour of “Grease”, thus living the dream that we had all shared years ago. One of us was a nurse, working in the ICU at a local hospital. One of us had more or less dropped everything to help raise her little brother. And then there is me, of course, dealing with IF.

After that visit, I know we all felt reconnected. A few days later, L had her baby and we all rallied together to welcome her into the world. Yesterday, we all got together to send B off on her tour and spend just a few more minutes together as a whole. We’re planning to get together and see her when “Grease” comes to our area. I don’t know what God has planned for our lives, but, for now, we’re becoming a family again. The place in my heart that was reserved for them has been overflowing, and I know that I am truly blessed.

My Husband Rocks!!

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My husband rocks this week because he's dedicated.Not only is he dedicated to me, and our marriage and future family, but he’s also a very dedicated employee. He loves the company he works for, and it shows. He works overtime whenever necessary and never complains. He takes pride in his work and promotes his business whenever he can. Often we’ll be driving around and he’ll point out the companies that he works closely with and makes note of the companies that he thinks would be good for them to partner with.

I’m sure I’ve said it here before, but my husband’s company is dependant on the economy. They deal with car dealerships and real estate agents. If homes and cars aren’t selling, then my husband’s company doesn’t get any work, and, in turn, doesn’t make any money. He could easily get a sales job somewhere, probably making more money, but he is 100% on board with his current company. As frustrating as it is sometimes, I am so proud of his dedication. I probably don’t say it enough, but I am. He inspires me.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

100th post!

Listening to the news is depressing. The Hubs just emailed me that CNN is reporting 81,312 housing foreclosures in September alone. I think I need to get out of my rut and count my blessings, because I know I have many.

- I have a nice house in the suburbs, and can pay for it.

- The Hubs and I have stable jobs (knock on wood)

- My marriage is happy and solid.

- I have a family who I am very close to. They are very supportive of me and my struggles with PCOS and IF.

- I have beautiful twin nieces who I love more than my own life. They give me hope for the future.

- I have friends who I love and who I know will always be there for me- even if I’ve been a flake and haven’t called them for weeks or, um, months.

- Even though money is tight, I don’t have to choose between paying a bill or eating every month.

- All 6 of my senses work. (Yes, 6. Didn’t you know that all women have a 6th sense called intuition?)

- My subconscious sends me some pretty crazy dreams at night to keep me entertained. (Is that weird? I LOVE to sleep because my dreams are always so neat…. Especially now that I’m drinking milk every night with my metformin)

- I’m spending my lunch break today with my long lost best friends from High school.

There’s so much more, but those are the ones I can think of off of the top of my head. I am blessed.

Also, this is my 100th post! YAY!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008


1999 is the year I graduated from HS. And it's the year I got my first job. And it's the year I started college. I think I might have met my "first love" that year, too, but we didn't start dating until 2000. (That's another story for another day.) That being said, I stole this little fun game from Erin at Seriously?!

The Rules:

A.) Go to

B.) Enter the year you graduated from high school in the search function and get the
list of 100 most popular songs of that year.

C.) Bold the songs you like, strike through the ones you REALLY hate. I'm blogger illiterate, so my hate ones will be red.

1. Believe, Cher

2. No Scrubs, TLC

3. Angel Of Mine, Monica

4. Heartbreak Hotel, Whitney Houston

5. ...Baby One More Time, Britney Spears

6. Kiss Me, Sixpence None The Richer

7. Genie In A Bottle, Christina Aguilera

8. Every Morning, Sugar Ray

9. Nobody's Supposed To Be Here, Deborah Cox

10. Livin' La Vida Loca, Ricky Martin

11. Where My Girls At?, 702

12. If You Had My Love, Jennifer Lopez

13. Slide, Goo Goo Dolls

14. Have You Ever?, Brandy

15. I Want It That Way, Backstreet Boys

16. I'm Your Angel, R. Kelly and Celine Dion

17. All Star, Smash Mouth

18. Angel, Sarah McLachlan

19. Smooth, Santana Featuring Rob Thomas

20. Unpretty, TLC

21. Bills, Bills, Bills, Destiny's Child

22. Save Tonight, Eagle-Eye Cherry

23. Last Kiss, Pearl Jam

24. Fortunate, Maxwell

25. All I Have To Give, Backstreet Boys

26. Bailamos, Enrique Iglesias

27. What's It Gonna Be?!, Busta Rhymes Featuring Janet

28. What It's Like, Everlast

29. Fly Away, Lenny Kravitz

30. Someday, Sugar Ray

31. Lately, Divine

33. Wild Wild West, Will Smith Featuring Dru Hill and Kool Moe Dee

34. Scar Tissue, Red Hot Chili Peppers

35. Heartbreaker, Mariah Carey Featuring Jay-Z

36. I Still Believe, Mariah Carey

37. The Hardest Thing, 98 Degrees

38. Summer Girls, LFO

39. Can I Get A..., Jay-Z Featuring Amil (Of Major Coinz) and Ja

40. Jumper, Third Eye Blind

41. Doo Wop (That Thing), Lauryn Hill

42. Mambo No. 5 (A Little Bit Of...), Lou Bega

43. Sweet Lady, Tyrese

44. It's Not Right But It's Okay, Whitney Houston

45. (God Must Have Spent) A Little More Time On You, 'N Sync

46. Lullaby, Shawn Mullins

47. Anywhere, 112 Featuring Lil'Z

48. Tell Me It's Real, K-Ci and JoJo

49. Back 2 Good, Matchbox 20

50. 808, Blaque

51. She's So High, Tal Bachman

52. She's All I Ever Had, Ricky Martin

53. Miami, Will Smith

54. Hands, Jewel

55. Who Dat, JT Money Featuring Sole

56. Please Remember Me, Tim McGraw

57. From This Moment On, Shania Twain

58. Love Like This, Faith Evans

59. You, Jesse Powell

60. Trippin', Total Featuring Missy Elliott

61. If You (Lovin' Me), Silk

62. Ex-Factor, Lauryn Hill

63. Give It To You, Jordan Knight

64. Black Balloon, Goo Goo Dolls

65. Spend My Life With You, Eric Benet Featuring Tamia

66. These Are The Times, Dru Hill

67. I Don't Want To Miss A Thing, Mark Chesnutt

68. I Do (Cherish You), 98 Degrees

69. Because Of You, 98 Degrees

70. I Will Remember You (Live), Sarah McLachlan

71. Chante's Got A Man, Chante Moore

72. Happily Ever After, Case

73. My Love Is Your Love, Whitney Houston

74. All Night Long, Faith Evans Featuring Puff Daddy

75. Back That Thang Up, Juvenile Featuring Mannie Fresh and Lil' Wayne

76. Almost Doesn't Count, Brandy

77. Man! I Feel Like A Woman!, Shania Twain

78. Steal My Sunshine, Len

79. I Need To Know, Marc Anthony

80. So Anxious, Ginuwine

81. Faded Pictures, Case and Joe

82. Back At One, Brian McKnight

83. When A Woman's Fed Up, R. Kelly

84. How Forever Feels, Kenny Chesney

85. Amazed, Lonestar

86. Sometimes, Britney Spears

87. Ghetto Cowboy, Mo Thugs Family Featuring Bone Thugs-N-Harmony

88. Out Of My Head, Fastball

89. Hard Knock Life (Ghetto Anthem), Jay-Z

90. Jamboree, Naughty By Nature Featuring Zhane

91. Take Me There, BLACKstreet and Mya Featuring Mase and Blinky Blink

92. Stay The Same, Joey McIntyre

93. Lesson In Leavin', Jo Dee Messina

94. Iris, Goo Goo Dolls

95. Satisfy You, Puff Daddy Featuring R. Kelly

96. Better Days (And The Bottom Drops Out), Citizen King

97. Music Of My Heart, 'N Sync and Gloria Estefan

98. Write This Down, George Strait

99. When You Believe, Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey

100. God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You, Alabama Featuring 'N Sync

Some of these songs (Like..Baby one more time) I HATED when they first came out... and then they grew on me and I ended up LOVING THEM! Don't judge, just play along!

Monday, October 20, 2008

I've been tagged (again)

I've been tagged by Michelle for this nifty little meme that I haven't seen before. I like it, so I will participate. If I didn't like it, I'd be a bad blogger and ignore it. Yeah, that's how I roll. Now for the questions...

1.Do you have the same friends since childhood?

Not really. I still stay in touch with some people from grade school, but they're mostly my sister's friends. I do still talk to a few people from High School, but I've mostly moved on.

2. What do you value most about your friends?
They make me laugh... even when I don't want to. And they make me feel like I'm worth something- which is really worth a lot!

3. Are your friends sounding boards?
OH yes!

4. What is your favorite activity to share with friends?
Really, just sitting around and sharing stories and laughing until we're crying. I don't require much, just a good conversation. And some wine and/or chocolate!

And now... I think I'm gonna tag..........

and Katy Lin

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Please read

I found this story by going through a number of channels. While I have never had a miscarriage, most of the things in this post couldn't be more relevant to my life. Please take a minute (or 5 or so.. it's a bit long) to read GiBee's story.


prayers needed

Well, I guess God does work in mysterious ways. I was in the middle of writing a post about my 1 person pity party when my boss came to me with a story that really made me put myself in check….

Her neighbor told her over the weekend that she is 4 months pregnant. However, there is a complication. The baby has too many chromosomes and will most likely be severely handicapped. They have to make the hardest decision that no parent should have to make- to carry the baby to term, or to abort. They also have 2 younger children ages 2 and 3. Please keep this family in your prayers. I cannot imagine being in their position.

Monday, October 13, 2008

I guess I shouldn't be so shocked...

Tested last night and got a BFN (big fat negative.) Went to try again this morning and AF showed up. I don't know why I'm surprised.

Friday, October 10, 2008

What do you think

Of my new look? I'm kinda digging it.

A bundle of something.....

This might come out to be a bit incoherent. Please be patient with me… I’m trying to sort some stuff out.

I’ve not ever been one of those people who analyzes if I have pregnancy symptoms or not. I don’t normally have strong feelings that I COULD be pregnant. This month, though, it’s different, and I’m not sure if I like it…..

I’ve been analyzing my symptoms. I feel sick almost all the time. I’ve been exhausted and asleep by 9:30 every night. (I would be asleep sooner if I didn’t have so much to do before I could get myself to bed. ) I feel like I’ve been blown up like a balloon. I’m lightheaded and a bit dizzy. I’ve been having some cramps and my boobs are KILLING ME

All of these could be signs of pregnancy, but they are also PMS symptoms and most are also side effects of Metformin. I’m trying SO hard not to get my hopes up. I’m trying to tell myself that I’m probably not pregnant- because why would this month be any different from the last 15 months? It’s been so easy to brush off these types of symptoms before, why not now?

Is it maybe because the Hubs is being so optimistic? Is it because my sister in law just has a feeling? I called her the other day, and she was just so sure I was calling to tell her that I was pregnant. They’re coming home next week for a bit (The Hubs’ brother has a temp job down in FL) and I would LOVE to be able to tell them some good news.

So I guess it all comes down do this: Do I want to be pregnant? Of COURSE! Do I think I AM pregnant? Yes. But No. But Maybe…… I’m a bundle of something (Nerves? Excitement? Anticipation?) and I need to either 1) get a visit from AF (not a welcome option) or 2) hurry up and get to Monday so that I can test. And then the test needs to be positive. And then I can relax. Kinda.

My Husband Rocks

My Husband Rocks this week because he lets me have my own life, and he really looks forward to the time we can spend together. I haven't been home much this week- and when I have been home, I've mostly been sleeping..... so he's been (more or less) planning his life around me this week. AND we're going on a date tonight. That means I don't have to cook. His idea. THAT'S why I love him :)

Monday, October 6, 2008

Metformin kinda sucks

I started taking Metformin on Friday night, and I'm not really a fan of the side effects. I read some warnings on and made sure to take it RIGHT before I go to bed and to take it with a glass of milk......

Fist of all, the pills have a bit of a fishy smell in the bottle. Not appetizing. And then, about 5 minutes after I take it, my whole body feels really dizzy. I wasn't able to ride in a car (driving was OK) most of the weekend, because I kept getting car sick. Even the 5 minute trip to church yesterday made me want to hurl. ugh! And also, until about halfway through the day, I feel like I have a mild/moderate hangover. I really hope this doesn't last.

Do any of you in bloggy land have experience with Met, or some advice to give me? I'm only on 500mg now, and the RE wants me to get up to 1500mg. I can't see this happening, but maybe I'm just super sensative because I've only just started to take it.....

Friday, October 3, 2008

My Husband Rocks!

Happy Friday, everyone! Things are pretty crazy over in our corner of the sky. Crazy busy with a whole lot of nothing (except waiting out the 2ww, of course.) The Hubs and I are going to a concert tonight, and I'm so excited! Brandon Heath (who I'm completely in love with) and Sara Groves (Who I fell in love with at a Jars of Clay concert) are playing in a church that is about 5ish minutes away from my house. How excited am I?! Pretty excited. Friday night is usually our unofficial "date night." We like to take the time to just get out of the house and do things as a couple- even if those things turn out to be running errands, at least we're doing it together. So.. I'm pumped.

This week, my amazing and wonderful husband rocks because he's so hopeful about this cycle of Clomid. I've asked him to kinda keep his confidence on the down low, because I REALLY don't want to be dissappointed or to dissappoint him. I have to admit, though, that his hopefulness is contagious! He has been so supportive of all of the RE appointments I've had to go to, and he has been totally committed to making sure I have whatever I need to get me through this stressful time. He's pretty much the awesome-est.