Friday, August 29, 2008

My Husband Rocks!!!!

Why does my husband rock?! Because he bought this shirt (as a surprise to me) and couldn’t wait to wear it! He actually got a little bit giddy when he put it on. The Hubs isn’t the best with words- but it’s the little things like this that reassure me that he really does love me! AND he rocks!!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I can't really say I'm surprised....

Went in for an ultrasound to check on my Clomid progress this morning (cd13). I only had 3 follies and they were all measuring 11mm. The last 2 rounds gave me folicles 17-22mm at this time. She's not sure if it's just not working, or if it's going slow. It's all so frustrating. I had a feeling that it wasn't working, though..... just a really bad feeling. I hope they're just growing slowly and that, by some miracle, we will have timed it pefectly, and that everything turns out like a fairy tale. I hope.

The Hubs came home yesterday from Sam's all proud that he found a HUGE bottle of Midol for $8. I looked at it and looked at him and almost threw it at him. I hope I don't end up needing it.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Marriage Builder Monday

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As I've said in previous My Husband Rocks posts, The Hubs does A LOT around the house. During the week, I cook dinner- and then I'm out for the count. I'll sit in front of the TV until it's about 9:30 and then I get ready for work the next day and go to bed. Mostly, if dishes need done, I either do them before making dinner or not at all. The Hubs goes crazy and can't stand my clutter, so he'll sometimes just start cleaning. I feel bad when he does this, but I just can't seem to get motivated to help. I say "that's what the weekend is for!"

That said, he LOVES it when I clean... especially when I organize things. This week, as my marriage builder challenge, I am going to try to keep at least the first floor in company friendly condition. It's nothing big, and I know keeping it up daily will be a big help for both of us, but I've never been able to do it before- so wish me luck!!!!

What will you do this week?

Saturday, August 23, 2008

I've been tagged

So I've been tagged a few times by some pretty great bloggers, Andrea, Stacy, and Staci.... So I guess I should play along!


1. Link to the person who tagged you

2. Post the rules on your blog

3. Write 6 random things about yourself

4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them

5. Let each person you have tagged know by leaving a comment on their blog

6. Let the tagger know when your entry is posted.

1. I just went to WalMart with my mom and spent too much money on crap I don't need... and junk food.

2. I found out today that one of The Hubs' friends reads my blog (Hi Jason!) so now he knows all about my womanly struggles. Not embarrassing at all.

3. We're watching my IL's puppy this week while they are on vacation. She's decided that she wants to live in our bedroom, and my dog has decided that he needs to pee all over our bedroom carpet. yay.

4. Right now I am wearing my sister's old maternity shorts. I'm not pregnant- they're just comfortable. Yes, I did go out in public wearing them.

5. It's 7:30 on a Saturday night, and I'm ready for bed!

6. The women I work with think I'm the weirdest person in the whole world. They've obviously been pretty sheltered, right? I'm not that weird, am I?

I'm not going to tag anyone, because pretty much everyone that I know well enough to tag has already been tagged....... so if you're reading this- I guess I'm gonna tag YOU

Friday, August 22, 2008

My Husband Rocks Friday!!!

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I LOVE LOVE LOVE My Husband Rocks Fridays! Not only is it Friday, but it's an excuse to brag about my incredible hubby! It always makes me a bit giddy to tell the world how great he is... so here goes.....

My Husband ROCKS because I can tell him "we're keeping the twins overnight- and you're going to have to sleep with the tv on on mute all night and a cd on." and he'll say "Ok, where do you want me to put up the pack n plays?"

OR I can say "My parents and brother and sister and great big dog are coming over on Saturday while they flea bomb the house" and he'll say "Ok, I'll clean the house since I'm only working a half day on Friday."

OR I can say "These Clomid Hot flashes are KILLING ME! Please change back into your clothes (we wear pajamas when it's just us at home) and drive down to the ice cream stand to get me something cold!" and he says "OK, what do you want?"

Yeah, he's pretty great ::sigh::

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Clomid update

I don't really have anything interesting to talk about right now. All of my family and most of my friends are on vacation- lounging on the beach and drinking cocktails- and I'm here lonely and bored. Well, actually right now I'm supposed to be working, so I'll make this quick.

I'm on Clomid day 3 right now (since I take my pills at night) and this is when it starts to get a little hell-ish. Yesterday I was so tired I couldn't hold my head up. Today the hot flashes are SO unbearable... and then I freeze (goosebumps and shivers and all) when I come down from them. I'm cranky, too. Tomorrow will be the day that the anxiety starts to set in, and being around people will make me feel claustrophobic. I'm sure there are worse things, but it would be really great if my ovaries worked on their own, ya know?

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


ICOMLEAVWE starts tomorrow, and I really don't have anything interesting up for people to comment on! Maybe I should get on that......

New post to come. I'm going to challenge myself to write something new every day during ICLW.

Monday, August 18, 2008

The Return of CLOMID and randomness

I start my 3rd round of Clomid tonight. I've been having hot flashes all weekend in anitcipation. Fun stuff, right?

I ended up not really having any plans this weekend. I coulda/ shoulda/ woulda cleaned my house and caught up my laundry and put more stuff up on ebay, but I didn't. Instead I sat on my couch looking at magazines and watching TV- mostly the style channel and Lifetime movies. OH and I rented Atonement. Let's review:

-I could TOTALLY be Kimora Lee Simmons. Basically she bosses people around all day and ends up getting everything she wants. She doesn't seem mean about it, just unwilling to compromise. It works, right? Also, OMG her closets! I was drooling just a little bit. And she seems to have a really great relationship with her kids. That was really cool to watch.

-I love Lifetime movies. I don't know what it is, but I just love them. I always have. I could sit on my couch all weekend and watch nothing but Lifetime Movies and be constantly entertained. Should I be ashamed of this? Cause I'm not.

- Atonement. (Sidebar: I hate when I have to watch a movie with the remote in my hands to control the volume through the whole thing. There were times when the music was SO loud that I had to hurry up and turn it down, and then there were times when I couldn't hear a word the characters were saying so I had to turn it up almost full blast. Annoying, right?) Maybe it's just me, but for the first 3/4 of the movie I was kinda confused, and the jumping around in time really threw me off. I wasn't quite sure why people raved and raved about this movie..... until the end. I'm not going to get into any spoilers here, but the end of the movie just made the entire thing worth it to me. It ripped my heart out and stomped on it and made me think about how beautiful life is. The Hubs was hanging out with one of his friends yesterday, and when the friend was leaving, he asked me how the movie was. Then he looked at my face and said "that good, huh?" Wowee! Great flick.

We had a sleepover with the Littles on Saturday night. It was so great to see their faces last thing before I fell asleep and first thing in the morning. And then we made banana pancakes and danced to Barney. And then we went to the park and saw the ducks. And then they cried because they didn't want to go home. And I cried. And they went home. It's so easy to get used to having them around.... it kinda felt strange NOT having them around.

Don't you wish you had my fabulous life?

Friday, August 15, 2008

My Husband ROCKS!

Hmmm so I've been a bad bad lazy blogger lately. I've been reading and responding, but I just haven't had much to say. Sorry about that!!! I'll have to get my rear in gear.

SO why does my husband rock today? I'll tell you why. He rocks because he handles all of our bills and money stuff.... and doesn't get TOO mad at me when I forget to give him receipts from when I stop for coffee in the mornings (oops!)

I freak out when it comes to money. I know it's bad, but I usually don't even look at the bank account. The Hubs will keep me informed of our balance and the things that need paid, but if I look at it myself, and see how many bills we actually have (necessities like mortgage, cars, utilities) I tend to hyperventilate. Also, I'm REALLY bad at paying bills on time... but I have realized my short comings and we decided before we got married that this would be the deal. (Actually I came with a disclaimer: "I don't cook, clean, do dishes, do windows, do yard work, or handle money." I actually do do some of that stuff, but I flat out told him numerous times that I wouldn't and he wanted to marry me anyway. That's LOVE right there, folks!)It works for us, and I can promise you that our marriage wouldn't be as strong as it is right now if he didn't take care of this. I'd be a basket case and he wouldn't be able to deal with me!

So tell me, why does your husband rock?

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

An Homage to some Amazing Women

It's come to my attention in the past few days that I have some pretty incredible women in my life. I feel the need to tell the world how much they mean to me and how amazing and strong I think they all are.

First, I'm going to tell you all about my friend T*. When I met T, I felt an automatic connection- like she was a long lost family member, or a sister that I never knew I had. T is a mom of 2. Her son just graduated from, and her daughter is just entering high school. She raised them, basically, on her own, and they are some of the most amazing kids I have ever met. They're kids, so of course they aren't perfect, but they were raised with a sense of responsibility and respect that I just don't see in many people. She has so much to be proud of when she looks at them, but she'll never give herself credit. She's the friend that I know I can count on for anything and everything. Although I would NEVER ask, I know she would walk over hot coals for me- and she knows I would do the same for her. It's just understood. She has blessed my life in so many ways. I consider myself so lucky and priviledged to know her.

T got engaged to be married a couple of weeks ago. She met her (super hot) fiance while we were working together. They've been together only a year less than The Hubs and I, and have been through enough to know that they have what it takes to be there for each other forever. I can't put into words how happy I am for them. If I had a million dollars, I would give them the wedding that neither of them were able to have the first time around. They deserve nothing but the best.

Now let's talk about L. L has been my best friend since our freshman year of high school. We have had MANY ups and downs, but I can't imagine my life without her in it. (You know the movie Beaches? That's us, but I'm not rich.) She's been through an awful lot in her life. She's stronger than she gives herself credit for.... and as the years go by, she's finally starting to realize how much she is worth as a person. She can make me laugh like no one in the world I've ever met. We can go months without talking and pick up where we left off. She has been so supportive through my struggles with IF, even when she's had to go through some REALLY rough times herself. I would probably fall apart if I had to go through what she is going through right now, but I have to give her credit- I have never seen her stronger or more beautiful in all of the years I have known her than she is right now.

L is going to have a baby some time in October. She has so much love to give, this child doesn't stand a chance. She is going to be an amazing mother.

Last in this post, but definitely not least, is my sister, Em. Em has proven herself to be SO much stronger and dedicated than I ever imagined she could be. My little sister is going to school to be a special education teacher. She is spending her summer at a rotary camp taking care of kids/adults with mild- severe disabilities. She is putting in long, hard hours. She's sleeping in a cabin, swimming in a lake, and helping grown people bathe and use the restroom!

I'm so amazed at the things that she is doing. This summer has been hard on her, but she is more resolved than ever that this is how she wants to spend the rest of her life. I am so, so proud of her.

*I haven't asked T or L if they would mind if I posted their names, so I just posted their initials. If they're reading this, they know who they are.

Friday, August 8, 2008

My Husband Rocks Friday!

It's FRIDAY again! Time for me to tell you exactly why my darling husband rocks this week.

This week, the Hubs rocks because he bought me ice cream. This may sounds silly to some, but for some reason, I fall in love with him all over again every time he hands me a bowl of the stuff. A couple of days ago, he went out and picked up a perscription for me (another reason why he rocks) and on the way back picked up a "surprise" ice cream sundae from the little ice cream stand around the corner.

I love him!

Just a little blurb

I'm gonna be an aunt again today! My foster brother & wife are going in later this morning for a c-section, and so I'll get to meet my new neice right after work! I'm so excited!

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Photoshop scares me

I have a couple of pretty interesting posts in the works, but I'm having some problems getting the thoughts in my head to translate into words. You know how that goes!

Now, back to the title. Does Photo shop scare anyone else? I mean, it's really cool to play with, and it can make a terrible photo of you somehow look good, but it just seems like EVERYTHING is photoshopped anymore! I was looking through an AVON catalog on my lunch break one day, and there is a page dedicated to a dark circle remover cream with "before" and "after" pictures. Great... but they are SOO OBVIOUSLY photoshopped! I mean, it looks like someone took the picture of an eye, photoshopped the real dark circle out, and then photoshopped a slight shadow under the eye. How in the world am I supposed to believe that this product works now? And it makes me so MAD because consumers aren't stupid! (well, some are, I'm sure, but I know most of us aren't, am I right girls?)

My point is this: if they can photoshop models in magazines, (and I'm sure EVERY SINGLE PICTURE in a magazine is doctored in some way)how is anyone supposed to know what is real? Any photo can be messed with. If someone is REALLY good at photoshop, it can look REALLY REAL! I'm not paranoid, honestly, but it's almost like losing trust in someone. If they lie to you once, how are you supposed to ever believe anything else that that person says?

I'm going to do something productive now. I'd love to hear your thoughts on this. Discuss!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Counting my blessings.

Lately I’ve been pretty down in the dumps. Nothing terrible has happened. I know that my self pity party is unwarranted. I know that I have a pretty cushy life….. so, today, I think I need to count my blessings so that I can remind myself what they are.

1. I have an amazing husband who: does dishes and laundry, takes care of the animals, cleans the house in his free time, loves me and can’t wait to get the baby train going again.

2. I have a family that is very strong and supportive, even when they’re being a big pain in the booty.

3. I own a house. With nice things inside.

4. Both the Hubs and I have decent cars that are dependable (knock on wood…. Like all of it that I have in sight)

5. I work at a pretty cushy job. I get paid a decent salary, and I usually am not too busy so I get to spend some QT with my Google reader and my Nesties.

6. I’m not constantly afraid that I will lose my job, like so many other people in the world.

7. I’m (relatively) healthy.

8. The Hubs is healthy (and so are his sperm.)

9. I have a puppy and a kitty that provide me with unconditional love, and are always happy to see me.

10. I have a DVR and a library card.

So I want to ask all of you…. What are you blessed with?

Monday, August 4, 2008

Marriage Builder Monday

It's MONDAY again! I know, how excited are you?!(she asked sarcastically.)

Do you ever look back at a certain time period in your life and say "what in the world was I even DOING that took up that much time?!" Well, the past 2 weeks, I haven't been home except to sleep. My poor Husband! And the sad thing is- I have NO IDEA what I've been doing that was so important that it kept me away from home! I know I met with a couple of friends that I hadn't seen in a really long time, so that may have been worth it.... and I went grocery shopping and let the Hubs chill at home with his DVR and video games, so that was nice of me... but really? It's sad.

This week, as a marriage building gesture, I will go home from work every day. If I have to go back out, I will wait until after I have made dinner and we have eaten it together, and then I will go run whatever errands I need to run. Hopefully the Hubs will tag along, but probably not. Wish me luck!

Friday, August 1, 2008


Warning: this is partly fertility related.

As I mentioned in my last post, the Hubs finally got his SA done. I know it’s a humbling and embarrassing experience for him, but I think it really made him even more “gung ho” in this whole baby making business. Ever since he’s “done the thing” (his words) He just seems to light up every time he thinks about us having kids. He’s SO confident that we’re going to be parents- good parents. He seems to be more interested in MY end of the testing. He’s more tuned in and interested. He’s just really excited. I can’t wait to give him a child (or 2 or 3..)