We’re going to wait to start IUI stuff until March. The Hubs read somewhere that it can take up to 6 months for metformin to help with ovulation, so we’re going to wait until then.
I hate being in this place. I hate being stuck, knowing that I can’t really move on with my life because of “what if?” (ie. If I get a new job, we’ll be without medical coverage and I probably won’t get maternity leave. At the same time, I think it’s really time for me to move on from this place. I need a job that will keep me mentally engaged throughout the day. This is not that job.)
I’m just kinda all over the place right now. I'm repeating myself, but I know I’m feeling sorry for myself, and that there are other people out there who have it worse than me. I know that I’m being a terrible person when I say that I don’t WANT to be that couple who waits and tries for 5 or more years before FINALLY getting a miracle pregnancy. At the same time, I really need to be able to move on from here. I think I could handle failed IUIs or a miscarriage better than I can handle “waiting it out.” I need to know that I’m going in a direction, one way or the other.
I’m just SO SICK of waiting……