Thursday, December 18, 2008

And I thought I was doing so well, too....

So my company is starting this new thing where they are offering free health assessments to employees. I had mine this morning, and I’m not too thrilled with the results. I thought I was doing well with the exercise (Ok, well maybe not lately) and the eating well, but my HDL is way low and my LDL is way high, and so is my BMI. So basically I found out that I’m not quite as healthy as I thought (and I didn’t really have any delusions- trust me.) AND They said that I’m only 61” tall. WHAT? Where did that extra inch go?! I’m starting to doubt the trustworthiness of these people. At least they were nice!

Last night we found out that a couple in our Sunday School class is pregnant. They’re really sweet, so I’m excited for them… but I’m kinda sad for me! Our Sunday school class was 1 of the 2 groups of people I hang out with who had no parents/pregnant ladies involved. It was nice to go there, because there was no talk of babies or kids or parenting- and now that whole dynamic is changing.

And, I mean, really? When will it be my turn? I’ve been doing so well with trying to enjoy the life I have now, but Christmas makes it so much harder. It’s like a double edged sword. I like to go to Christmas events because I like to see the wonder and awe and innocence that children bring to it all, but then it gets to a point where there are children everywhere, and my arms start to ache and it starts to get to be to painful to be around them. I know things happen when they’re supposed to, but I’m not getting any younger here!


Staci said...

I cant pretend to understand. But I will def pray that God will comfort you. if you need anything more or need me to pray for specifics please dont hesitate to ask.

Jenilee said...

oh honey! I second that! I love my friends who are getting ready to have kids.. but...seriously??!?

FatGuySpeaks said...

It's going to be ok.

It just IS.

Tiffanie said...

uggghhh, yea, i know the feeling when someone you thought you didn't have to worry about talking about baby stuff winds up knocked up. it's painful, annoying, and a whole bunch of other words that suck.

sorry. atleast you have us;)

*~*Bodhi~*~Englightenment*~* said...

Unfortunately on the ttc pathway, we're going to come across those who fall pregnant easily, those who fall when they didn't even want to and those who just infuriate the hell out of us LOL such is life.

It doesn't make it any easier to deal with but knowing that you're not the only one struggling with this seems to take the edge off thinking you're insane LOL

Keep your chin up...we've been ttc#1 for 9 years now, it doesn't get easier but just know you aren't alone and that there are plenty of us, willing to walk next to you on this pathway, to lend support and enouragement and listen when you need to vent!