Thursday, May 7, 2009

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Well, it’s CD1 for me. WARNING: this is going to be a TMI post. If you’re one of those people who know me in real life and don’t really want to hear about my bodily functions, stop reading right now.
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I did O this month. The Hubs and I actually did “do the deed” during the fertile period. I didn’t say anything to him or anyone else about it. I guess I thought that if I didn’t say anything, it wouldn’t jinx it- and I’d be telling my family on Mother’s Day that I would be joining the ranks soon. I was wrong. Damn hope.

A couple of days ago, I started spotting. I still didn’t say anything. It was brown and REALLY light. I still had hope. Yesterday was more of the same. I had visions of taking an HPT on Saturday morning and waking the Hubs up and doing a happy dance and crying together and jumping on the bed (well maybe not. We have a low ceiling in our bedroom, and he’s 6’5”, so it would be ME jumping on the bed alone).

This morning, I woke up to find that AF did decide to pay me a visit. Bitch. And she’s not being very nice about it, either. I have the worst cramps I can ever remember having. I’ve taken 4 ibuprofen, and still I’m in bad shape. Dammit. And I still have to be at work and smile and act like I’m not in pain.

I’ve been taking the cinnamon for about 3 weeks. I started taking vitex this morning, and I’m stopping by Wally World on my way home to pick up some soy. I WILL O in May, dammit. This path I chose to take WILL work. It has to….

6 comments:

Megan's Infertility said...

I know all about AF being a BIG bitch! She has caused me many a days of pain and suffering and loads of time in bed watching TV...she's getting better now though for some reason.

I'm hoping that it gets better for you! I'm sorry you didn't get a BFP and that AF had to come for her visit. There is a POSITIVE and that's that she did decide to show and the cinn is working! I still can't have an AF without being medicated. I'm trying the Fertilaid in hopes it will work but I'm doubtful.

If you ever need to talk I'm here!

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jill said...

So sorry about AF showing. What timing, eh? Lots of luck to you for your next cycle!!

bunny said...

Sorry for the arrival of AF... not a great way to start the weekend.

Amanda said...

Sorry :(

I know what you mean about not wanting to jinx it. Here's to another chance. Hope that vitex does some good.

Passionista said...

I just want to thank you for chronicling your experiences. It's brave to be so honest but I just wanted you to know one of your readers appreciates it.